probably i didn't have the guts to tell you this. that is why i wrote it here

dear mr. f

if you wonder why i am quiet these past few days

its all because i've been doing a lot of thinking

how much things will be different when i am not around

don't get me wrong

its not that i am excited to leave

its just that, i will need to adapt to the changes that will take place

you know how i hate being under pressure -- 'cause i'll be very paranoid, clingy

sometimes i try not to think much about you, that is why i work and work; not that i want to forget you but to adapt myself to changes

when i'm in pain, when i'm in difficulty, i will need to face them all on my own and not to rely or complain it to you

i hope, you are able to understand the changes that has been occuring for the past week

just to let you know,

i do miss and still think a lot about you.

i hope you do too, think and miss me at the other end of the world.

i do want to let you know that every text message or even hearing your sleepy voice, simply makes me smile, especially after a tired day at work -- even if it is just for two seconds

i love you, mr. f