looking at these happening too fast

I'm very happy for my aunt, Bik Piah

in fact, can't wait for the next wedding

whose next?

but honestly, looking at everything all so crystal clear,

I'm afraid to enter into that stage of life

not being ready

not being up to the right standards

not to be there for him (for the kids) when they need me the most

not the wife the husband dream of

not the mummy the kids want

though yeahh, I do want all that

a family, commitments, children, smiles and laughter everyday, feeding the children even when they cry out in the middle of the night, seeing them grow, educate them, cook, clean, sacrifices. all these. in fact, more than all these.

am I really that person who can do all that? can I be a superwoman -- wife?

even if its a thousand years to reach that stage, am I able to do all that?

wedding is just a day with all smiles and happiness

the real deal is what takes place the subsequent days

to those who will be getting married soon -- my friends, my cousins

I wish you all best & semoga hingga ke anak cucu & ke pintu syurga :)