i can't help my emotion sometimes. but i know i have to be strong! and i know i will! insyaAllah. it's hard to accept this fact, but c'mon. it's been seven months. its good that i am learning to be alone. but its hard to bottle all the emotion, someday when the bottle breaks, all the emotion will burst-out. Dear Allah, lead this child. She needs You. You are the Only One she needs and truly believe to be able to guide her through. its not love, nor its hatred. its plain emotion, just being kept for too long. there should be something to be done.