you told me to go, you know i wanted to stay

you said you didn't know, if i was the one

when over the years you sworn my title to be that special one

but you know i was confident for you to be the only one

you torn the last inch of my heart with every emotion attached to it

leaving it blank

leaving me to be emotionless

yes, you don't deserve -- not chance, not appearance, not being the one

do you even know i was all dried up, sick, motionless, just by broiling my eyes and soaking my emotions

do you even know i put you first even before me

do you even know my life, my license, my car, my future company was once dedicated for you

do you even know your photo was framed up my wall

do you even know how many times i checked on your fb each day

do you even know how long i waited for you to text/whatsapp me

do you even know i planned the best future for us both

do you even know i dressed my best and feel the adrenaline rush everytime you bring me out to dates

do you even know i'm blessed even if you dated me once a month

do you even know my prayers are for you to be a better muslim to be able to guide me

do you even know i closed my heart to every men that ever wants to get to know me

do you even know where you stand in my soul

now.

do you even know that i don't want to know anything about you

and do you even know that i don't want to know about you anymore.

and do you even know that i'm back to who i was. i don't wanna love any men. and that includes you.